My new gynecologist sent me for another round of testing to see what’s going on with my wacky reproductive system. I was on month three of spotting (which has never happened before), and on month two of BCP. Part of me still wants answers. Part of me still wants to ignore all of this. She sent me to an endocrinologist (not the reproductive type), and to a radiologist for an ultrasound. Good news - the second type of BCP is working well! I don’t feel crazy, and my PMS seems totally normal again. Thank the good lord. More good news - there is nothing wrong with my thyroid. Completely normal. Not even border line a little bit. (Annoyingly, the endocrinologist spent a lot of time telling me that I should come back for more testing when I’m pregnant, and after giving birth. Did you listen to anything I said, dude?) I guess I should be happy that my thyroid isn’t causing my infertility or wacky cycles, but I’m just not. I’d prefer an answer. Preferably one with a solution. 

The not so good news: the u/s confirmed that there’s something officially weird on my right ovary. This is not news to me; it’s been there in every single u/s I’ve ever had. Sneaky little bugger. But, now the gyno wants me to get an MRI to check it out further. UGH. I was really not expecting this at all, and it hit me hard. I consulted Dr. Google, which I never do, and I really don’t think it’s ovarian cancer. But, the word “benign” has been used, which causes immediate concern in my world. Ugh to the max. The up side is that I was going to ask for an MRI, as they can be used to diagnose certain types of endometriosis, according to my u/s technician. So, hopefully we can do a two-for-one deal.

To add to this delightful scenario, I apparently have a deductible for this type of procedure and will have to shell out about $1500-2000 for the MRI. And that’s for in-network. Eff that. 

So, although I’m no longer trying to involve my body in family building, it’s still dragging me along - test after test. I must say, I’m goddamn over this.